Pandoraspace

One of Bill McGarry’s favorite poems is When I was One and Twenty by A. E. Houseman.  I like listening to this poem because it sounds good when read. But, as with many things Fr. Bill taught me, I never really understood the meaning of this poem until much later.  Now that I know what this poem is all about, I agree with everything this wise man says about love but I would never follow his advice.

When I was one-and-twenty
I heard a wise man say,
Give crowns and pounds and guineas
But not your heart away;

Give pearls away and rubies
But keep your fancy free.
But I was one-and-twenty,
No use to talk to me.

When I was one-and-twenty
I heard him say again,
The heart out of the bosom
Was never given in vain;
Tis paid with sighs a plenty
And sold for endless rue.
And I am two-and-twenty,
And oh, tis true, tis true.

“Never pride yourself for overcoming a temptation you have never had” is what my friend, Bill McGarry SJ, told me when I entered his office one day. He was quoting Francois Mauriac and I was just 17 and did not know any better.

I do not remember when I met Bill. What I do remember is that Bill and I would have long conversations in those days when I had nothing but time on my hands. It was years later when I realized that, in between jokes and senseless banter, Bill had taught me more about life, the goodness in people and the Jesuits than anyone had, and probably ever will. In fact even before I realized how much Bill had taught me, I was so moved and inspired by Bill’s stories about the Jesuits that I actually wanted to be one. But, as I am a girl, this is not a possibility. Lucky for the Jesuits.

The best thing Bill taught me is how to forgive myself so I could forgive others. I believe Bill himself practiced what he preached. Through the years, I have confessed my misdeeds to Bill. Worse, Bill learned first hand what an awful friend I could be. Despite this, Bill has accepted me and remains to be a true friend.

The one constant request Bill has ever asked of me was to “be good”. I have always politely refused that request by telling Bill “I’ll try”. Since it is Bill’s birthday today, I won’t try to be good. I’ll really be good…but just for today.

Happy 81st Birthday Fr. Bill.